everything.

She's really a beauty,
Inside and out.
And vice versa.
And then some.

Great face.
Great figure.
Wonderful personality.
Charming to converse with.
Dangerous to compete with.

She wins (most) of the arguments.
She wills you with her sheer dynamo.
She asks me some of the most unanswerable questions I've ever heard.
She sees through the baloney,
And there's plenty of it,
From whomever it might come - even if it's me.

It's uncanny.
She is uncanny.
She is the complete package.
She is my everything.

climb ev'ry mountain.

you're going to find mountains in your life every single day... every moment of every day. it seems that all my life i've been told, 'you can't do this' or 'you can't do that'. at 21, i felt like a has been. i felt like i had accomplished everything i was meant to, and i was riding at this lowered plateau for eternity. i was a has-been.

it was somewhere in that period of time where i looked up at the mountains in my life, standing at that plateau - incredibly scared of moving. it was sometime recently that i said to myself - 'watch me climb these mountains, because i know what is at the top.' i know what's at the summit of the mountain. and i believe it. you have to believe in yourself. if you believe that you can, then you will.

recipe.

take love
add a little laughter,
til you see her pretty smile.

take the rain,
turn it into sunshine,
til you feel a little better inside.

take some time
and find the way,
til you feel at home together.

put it all together,
til it feels all too familiar
and that's my girl.

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honestly
i don't remember
what we talk about sometimes.

because, sometimes,
i just fall in love
with the sound of your voice.

and, all the time,
i'm in love
with the sound of you
in love with me.

breeze on by.

now i've got the sunshine everyday
no more clouds are in our way.
so easy, like an angel above from the sky,
you come into my life and you just breeze on by.

under attack.

you try and cope
with how they victimize you.
for when they're down,
they only criticize you.

Lord, I'm asking now for mercy
because they need to break it.
i'm praying hard for strength now
because we just can't take it.

test.

God is testing me. In order to move into the next stage of my life, He is testing me. He is testing my patience, my ability to learn and absorb, to apply His teachings to my life, and to stand strong in my belief, among other things. If he was not testing me, how else can I account for the proliferation of the things that are now tempting me in ways that I must resist. How can I disregard my own strength in morality when I'm constantly plagued with an environment that is defined by such easy immorality or relaxed morality (whatever way you want to define it). The situation I am in now is puzzling. Even if it were not against the law, even though it is, I find it very difficult to find the blessing that exists in that. The happiness that exists in those things is temporary, it's in passing. It isn't real. Most importantly, it isn't lasting. True bliss is in what happens organically to us. Love walks in and fulfills that desire. No drug can replace that feeling. I guess because I had the awakening of sorts in regards to what is really important, to me at least, in life - being surrounded by those whose purpose is defined by their theatrical resume, they can't relate to my desire to accomplish something within me. For there to be integrity, fortitude, grace and love inside of me and everything I do - that is what defines me. I know. You know. God knows. That is what matters.

Side note: blogging from your iPhone is difficult.